mismeeting

i called you to ask about your day
i assumed you'd ask about mine -
faned interest as it may be
i left you feeling sad and unseen
alone

i met with you later in the day
i assumed i'd get high on memories -
distant and dead
i left you feeling sad and lost
alone

i sat with all of you tonight
i assumed i'd be seen and engaged -
not myself as i had been
i left you feeling sad and unnoticed
alone

is there anything more lonely than disappearing in a room full of people
is there anything more lonely

is there anything more sad than being seen only to vanish
is there anything i'd hide from you if only you saw
me

then came the deep of night
i sat, weeping inwardly, at your feet
i assumed i'd run to your company -
a father's welcoming arms
i left you, sulking to be unseen
alone

i left you though your hand stretched out
i hid though your eyes searched

is there anything more sad than your longing, unmet eyes
and my running, unseen heart?