11.9.05

church

last night at the mhgs retreat, we did a labyrinth.

on the way out, you're supposed to be joining in with what God is doing.

i kept thinking about how i had to get up at 5 to catch a ferry and get to the church early enough to get all these petty last minute things done and all i could ask is "God, why is it that working at a church feels so antithetical to 'joining' you?"

this isn't burn out speaking anymore. it's honesty. how do i get out of this trap?

1 comment:

Becky said...

yeah, i know you're right.

i'm sad you're right.

it is how right you are that makes me want to dismiss this as a cliche.

but it's not. it's more. i'm tired of it being true.