someday?

I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

-death cab for cutie

but when our parents, friends, dates, and even our dreams have not loved us
try though they have
if even we have not loved ourselves
when i have never tasted love apart from the God i push away and never really see
how am i supposed to believe i will be loved?
how dare i tell others they will be loved?

and even if we someday see God
even if i cease to run from God's loving gaze
even if God's embrace became as real as the quickly passing sunset
would my cynicism change?

on this earth, we are meant to long for love
we are meant to long for the other
and even if the other tries to love me
will he?
will he meet wild success?
can i dare to dream there's even something worth loving?

someday will i be loved?
will these loveless days and tear-filled nights seem like bad dreams?

i don't know.
the song is pretty.
i want it to be true.
but is it?